well im free, and ive resantly started a new animation(started friday night)

and well so far its going good, may finally have something to show on NG again, its only be like, what, a year and a half since i last posted something. lol i find that sad. i need to start working again. so yeah....

um heres a snap shot of one scene......yeah i'll leave more info and news and stuff at another time. yeah.....hmn.....i guess thats it for now.

damn...im grounded...once again, sorry ng still nothing coming from me anytime soon....

cya til im off being grounded bleh

my lifes taken a bad turn...the animation i had hoped to make one day, the series, shattered, i had so long wanted to create, ive cancled it, put it away because of its difficulty, my grades at school are slipping, last night i had to save my friend from suicide....and today, the girl i loved with all that i am, the one i wanted to spend my life with, the one i though loved me the same, broke my heart and left me......and nothing seems to be going right for me....

im not really sure what to do now, i seem to fail at everything i do, i mean sure call me what you will, ive already beaten myself enough as it is, why not thrown in a few punches, but i just feel like every things crashing down on me.

i should be more hopeful though, hold onto something. all i have now really are my poems and drawings and my worthless half assed flashes.

but i plan to head back to my roots in a way, instead of trying to do the long series, that i had hoped shattered could have become, im going back to simply animating poems.

but my skill has increased phenomenally, i no longer need the guidance of pictures or other artist, now im more free and stronger for it. i plan to make a few more animations, i havent finished and submitted any in nearly a year, and they will distract me from my problems

dont really know why im writing this though, not like anyone knows me on NG, not like any of my flashes are memorable, and its not like newgrounders would be all that interested in what some failure plans to do with his poetry, or who hes trying to help through suicide while managing his own problems and a broken heart. but i suppose just writing about it releases some of the pressure, helps a bit.

whatever, fuck life, its a terrible thing, but it sure beats being dead, lifes being hard to me, maybe i should be hard back. anyways, i guess you could look for something from me in maybe a few weeks or a month. dunno.

ha ha, well ive been working on this for a long time, but i have continually scrapped and restarted it many times, so this is the first time its made it this far and its looking pretty promising and i hope that since schools about to end ill have more time to work on it. so look for shattered episode 1 sometime in the next few months.

right now its about 3 minutes out of the hopeful 10, how ever v_v

ha ha, well i know i haven't submitted anything in nearly a year, but this is going to be my greatest creation, i spent most of my time planing and getting things ready to make this, and now its finally on its way to completion, its not moving very fast but it is getting done.

every frame is highly graphically intense, so it'll be a challenge to complete, but this i fell will be my best animation. so i cant get much done because of the amount of work required, plus i have school that slows me down, and with the free time i do have i often(and happily) choose to waste that free time with my wonderful love of my life, Kathryn ha ha. so alot of work to do and not alot of time. but ill get it done at some point >.<

but yeah, this'll be a series at some point, and if you would like to learn more about it, pm me or read some of my previous posts.

so yeah, i think ill leave it at that, and heres a screen shot for you lol, this is the character Naomi in my series, this is part of a scene were she injures her arm in a fight. but yeah

so basically, working on my animation in the time i have, maybe be done at some point in the summer, need more info on the series or the characters or what ever, pm me or read my old posts, cya around NG

Shattered is going great, each frame has alot of detail and work put into it. but it'll still be a while till its finished. so yeah. and heres a pic, not the best pic to show, because theres no background and stuff but yeah, thats for effect, this is the main character and hes just been stabbed in the shoulder by one of the monsters in the animations, yeah, so wish me luck to its completion, and to those of you who are looking forward to this i thank you, and to those of you who wish to no more about it, just pm or email me or what ever and ill try and get back to you, thanx.

*oh and yeah, sorry his eyes look kinda funny, in the animation it looks alright, but right here for some reason, his eyes look like there going of in different directions lol. also his right eye is blue and his left is purple, so yeah.

happy easter. just wanted to say that, and for those of you who are awaiting "shattered" well its going to be a bit longer, after watching "EFN" episode 1 and 2 i realized, my animation needs to be alot better, so im starting over again, and this time, im going to start it off with more action and make it so it'll keep the views attention longer, id hate for some one to just get bored at the beginning. so yeah, i have all of spring break to work on it, so i should be able to make up for the lost time. so yeah, ill keep you posted.

pic* this is rykov, one of the characters in my animation, but this is from the one that i just canceled, he was standing on a cliff and the wind blew his hair and coat around and then his eyes open and you see a burning city in their reflections, he'll look the same in the new, but he will probably show up later in the series, now off to work for me. lol.

ok, well i was on myspace today and i found this personality quiz, i usually dont do these but a said whats the harm, and well this turned out pretty accurate lol

try it here http://similarminds.com/global-adv.htm l

these were my results

Extraversion 22%Stability 82%Orderliness 18% Accommodation 70% Interdependence 30% Intellectual 50% Mystical 70% Artistic 90% Religious 23% Hedonism 23% Materialism 50% Narcissism 30% Adventurousness 36% Work ethic 30% Humanitarian 43% Conflict seeking 30% Need to dominate 43% Romantic 83% Avoidant 30% Anti-authority 43% Wealth 30% Dependency 30% Change averse 50% Cautiousness 50%Individuality 56% Sexuality 90% Peter pan complex 50% Family drive 56% Physical Activity 50% Histrionic 16% Paranoia 56% Vanity 36% Honor 50% Thriftiness 63%

Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..
Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
secretive, reclusive, messy, disorganized, introverted, unassertive, rarely worries, dislikes large parties, does not like to fit in, does not need to control others, solitary, ambivalent about chaos, tough, leisurely, does not respect authority, not aggressive, observer, abstract, impractical, dislikes leadership, daydreamer, bizarre, does not make friends easily, not a perfectionist, suspicious, rarely irritated, strong physical instincts, unsympathetic at times, risk taker, submissive, weird, sarcastic, strange

lol yeah, so i also got the deffinitions for my strong points, so this goes from highest to lowest

yeah, thats me lol. mostly

and these are the definitions of my highest and lowest traits, so ill go from highest to lowest lol

sextualiy =90%

more kinky than vanilla, erotic, feels pleasure should play a central role in life, not oppossed to strip clubs, promiscuous tendencies, likes to be naked, seductive, loves getting massages, likes to dress provocatively, merges and feels intimate oneness with others, believes love is proven through physical expression, believes they get what they want because of how they look, more sensual than intellectual, uses looks to get what they want, believes personal relationships are more important than personal privacy, would rather risk rejection than remain alone, not afraid to show their feelings when they like someone, impulsive, charmer

artistic =90%

drawn to artistic and cutting edge industries, drawn to careers where creativity is a solitary pursuit, more abstract than concrete, original, appreciates beauty, ideal love seeking, intense, imaginative, introspective, likes indie rock music, prone to an interest in acting, likes art house movies, self expressive, likes to look wierd, pulled to the symbolic and mysterious, likes to perform, prone to keeping a journal, attracted to the counter culture, interested in journalism, odd, trend setter, different, lives an experimental life, prefers shopping at organic markets, attracted to wierdness, more likely to be vegetarian, dislikes the ordinary and non dramatic, feels both special and defective

Romantic=83%

merges and feels intimate oneness with others, wants to feel loved, fears being unwanted, finding true love is their main passion in life, romantic idealist, can't control their romantic feelings or thoughts, when in a relationship their attention is entirely focused on that person, desires secure relationships above all else, feels best when they are admired, would sacrifice anything for love, believes love is salvation, gets very attached to people, more sensual than intellectual, would rather be in a mediocre relationship than alone, loves getting massages, desires more attention, concerned about being attractive to a potential soul mate, swayed by emotions, fears having no guidance or support, frequently feels loving towards others

stability=82%

calm, patient, easy-going, never gets too emotional, remains cool when others panic, not quick tempered, less prone to depression, trusting, optimistic, self confident, not swayed by emotions, not prone to envy, rarely worries, well adjusted, less prone to physical and mental sickness, more likely to exercise, able to bounce back from hardships
Accommodation=70%

nice, happiest when helping and giving to others, does not mind serving others, unselfish, generous, self sacrificing, other-centric, warm, caring, loving, peaceful, modest, has trouble saying no, has trouble being firm, does not enjoy fighting, very loyal, prefers team victories over personal glory, wants everyone to get along, not manipulative, drawn to public service fields, good listener, comforter, not materialistic, honest, agreeable, nurturing

mystical=70%

feels pulled to the symbolic, archetypal, and mysterious; likes to look wierd, believes in extra sensory perception, lives an experimental life, frequently reinvents self, more abstract than logical, more likely to be a trauma survivor, looks for hidden meaning, attracted to wierdness, different, off beat, unpredictable, more solitary, focus on fantasies more than reality, drawn to artistic and cutting edge industries, bohemian, prefers autonomy, erotic, charmer, insightful, prefers strange clothing

so yeah, basically this is me, funny though i have both a high sexuality and a high romanticism, those are contradictory, but yet i have that high stability so i think that evens things out lol. and over all i guess im just strange lol. but yeah let me know your results if you want, guess you could pm them to me or whatever.

but yeah other than this quiz thing, i just wanted to let the few people who actually know that im working on something, that well its going good, i mean it'll still be quite some time till its done buts its going good none the less. lol

pic* this is a character in my new animation. this is just a simple part of the scene, but i thought it look pretty cool, so yeah cya around*

yup, i just put up a new header/banner thing on my page. this is a bunch of different drawings of mine ive done over the past couple of months in flash, all from the same basic thing. ive been practicing for a series of my own, and these are just a couple of the many things ive been drawing for it. right now im working on an actual episode, taking forever though, so dont expect much any time soon. ive been slowed down alot with school work and my sick grandmother.

but for the basic gist of things the series is a post-apocalyptic, and its in an anime style. it will really be my first action animation and its going to be alot different than my old animations, my old ones kinda embarrass me, poems arent really that cool, i mean i like to write and stuff but i just dont feel comfortable showing them off, not to proud of them, most of them i made because they are easier than conventional animation and then some are just kinda dorky. so really i just want to have something i can show to my friends and N.G. that fits more into the atmosphere and style, but yet doesnt lose my touch of darkness and poetical twists and over all the jestercap kinda feel, lol, not that ive ever been good enough to have my own feel or anything, just my individuality.

ive been planing this one for along time, i have so much work to do. if you would like to learn more about what i hope to create(like the basic story line, characters, the music ill be using and other things) just let me know(P.M. probably) and ill be happy to go in a little more depth. and to the few of you who like my animations or just the couple that actually stopped to read this, maybe sometime in the next few months ill have something descent to put up here on N.G. that is if i dont totally screw this over or get grounded or something that could intervene, but yeah blah blah blah, lol. thanx for reading and stuff cya.

im finally un-grounded lol. although im not completely off of restriction yet, not until i fix my two D's and then i can really get back to working on anything, so yeah lots to do. it'll be awhile until i have anything good up here on NG but ill get working as soon as i can, im just trying to get things right, i really want to make my next one good. with all the mistakes i've made in my old flashes i have learned many new tricks and got alot of tips so yeah what ever i get going on here next should be alot better than my old junk lol. so yeah good luck to you other newgrounders and yeah cya around.

*pic "SoulForge" by brom, my favorite artist check out his art and books at his website http://www.bromart.com/

as it says above, im grounded, so itll be a while till i can work on anything new, sorry to those who were waiting, hopefully i can find a way out of this. but if not i wont be free til summer(hopefully not)

blah, see you.